Quiet your mind

When I feel that my mind is too full, too noisy, when my thoughts are all over the place. The one thing that brings me back down to Earth is to be around nature. I’m not sure what happens that allows me to become grounded again, but it feels amazing. Sometimes I feel numb. Numb in the sense that I don’t remember all those horrible feelings that I had before. I hardly remember what made me feel the way I did in the first place.

So I sit, and I don’t think of anything but the trees and the sky and the entire universe. And how I am just one tiny person, with tiny problems, living in a HUGE world full of millions of people and animals, who also need all the help and love they can get.

I realise that we are all just trying to survive in the best and easiest way possible. I feel my soul talking. It tells me that nothing really matters as much as our minds trick us into believing it does. Nothing is as important or as scary as we make out it is. My soul tells me that time does not matter, that patience is EVERYTHING. That things can’t always come to us when we want it to and that things don’t always happen the way we planned it to.

And that’s it, that’s all it is. Acceptance. Living without expectation. Trust.

x

Love only

You may think you know what it is that you want in life. But when it’s all said and done and you’re about to take your last breath, the only thing that will truly matter is love. And always will be love ❤️

Yet ego and pride are here to try and test you, to try and break you from your connection to love. They somehow convince you that it’s not important, that cars, money, looks, everything else matters more. It doesn’t. Those things don’t stay with you when you leave this earth. But your soul will always remember love. The love that you gave and the love that you received.

Never give up on it. Fight for it. Find love in everything that you do, everyone that you meet and everywhere that you go. Find love by seeing that we are all one. By opening your heart.

It can be so tiring when you put love into the wrong things and try to find it with the wrong people, but keep going because there are lessons that need to be learnt. And when you do finally learn…love will find YOU! You won’t have to search anymore.

Goodnight everyone x

Letting go of the hate!

Okay maybe hate is a really strong word but when it comes down to how badly you’ve been treated then I suppose hating it is understandably normal.

Doesn’t it stress you out when you’re in bed, awake, WIDE awake late at night, thinking about all of the things that you’ve been through, and all of the people who have wronged you! You over think it. You start hating what they done to you more than when they actually done it, because it hits you, that they never actually realised how much it affected you? Don’t you hate knowing that no matter how much you think about it, it will not change anything?

I was actually the worst person when it came to this way of thinking. I would wind myself up so much. The main thing that got to me, was knowing that I hadn’t received an apology from those people who hurt me. It would have meant so much to me, they could have given me a decent reason for doing for they had done and a genuine apology for it. But nope. It angered me even more knowing that would NEVER happen. So I was always in battle with my thoughts. I would feel so drained and tense after thinking about it. I could literally feel what it was doing to my inner peace, my body…my heart!

I came to the conclusion that it doesn’t actually matter, none of it matters anymore. I began to understand that I don’t need an apology for any of it because it will not change what had happened. I realised that what I truly needed was to move on from it, and the only way to move on was to forgive! Forgive them. Forgive myself. So I slowly, and I mean slooooowly, attempted to start forgiving. I told the universe I was ready to move on from everything so that it could never bother me again, and that I would accept anything it put in my life that would help me on my journey of letting go. Funnily enough, these people actually came back into my life afterwards, by a text message and a few encounters. I knew it was time for forgiveness to happen so I went a long with it. The universe heard me.

It was tough, because those people brought back hurtful memories. It was even harder seeing that they still weren’t guilty or sorry AT ALL. In the end (a long time after) I chose to accept all of it. I’ve probably mentioned this in my other posts, but when there is acceptance, there is change. Good change. I trained myself to let go of the hate. I’d lay awake at night to find myself thinking about it, but instead of giving those thoughts power, which meant I would stay awake for hours still thinking about it, I decided to push them away. Literally. I visualised myself grabbing my thoughts and throwing them away. I FORCED myself to stop thinking about it. It was really hard. I felt like I was fighting with two different sides of me. Sounds really weird, but after weeks of doing this, my mind slowly got used to not thinking about it. Every now and again, I lay awake and think about how happy I am with myself for doing that. For actually sticking to my word and not giving in to my negative and hateful thoughts towards my past. There’s always something (loads of things actually) that keep me up. But I’m proud to say it’s not the past!

Even something as small as your regrets, decisions and actions you’ve made, or the arguments with family and friends, or those sly comments from the people you work with. Or even work itself. Just let it all go. What is the point of letting these things wind you up? There are things we have no control over. The only thing we can control, is our reaction to them and how much power we really give them.

So, aim to be so full of love and light that there is no room for hate and darkness. Let the love within you be so strong that it overrides any kind of tension you feel in your heart and mind.

Remember, none of it matters anymore.

Xx

Don’t really know where I’m going with this…Turning Vegan I suppose?

Okay so I was sitting at the dinner table one day looking down at my plate full of chicken. I then looked up at my beautiful budgie (Lily or Lilo, she has two different names because for a whole year I thought she was a girl, only to find out she is really a boy. So now it’s just weird to think she is a boy and that I have to give her a boy name. But okay we will talk about that later). The thought came to my mind that ‘if that was my bird on my plate would I still eat him?” HELL NO. I love animals and always have done from ever since I can remember. ‘So why am I eating them? Why am I not doing what I know is morally right?’

That’s it. I made the decision to stop eating meat then and there. My family thought this was one of my ‘why is the world like this’ moments as I often come out with these random views and lectures about the world from completely OVER THINKING life. Proud to say I proved everyone wrong.

Turning completely vegan was much harder, well, harder in the sense that I knew I couldn’t cut everything out straight away without knowing what else I could eat (still learning btw). I knew that if I did this for real it will be forever so it had to be done properly. I did not force myself to stop eating and drinking certain things, it all happened quite naturally especially after seeing videos on Instagram about the dairy industry. Oh god!

Note to anyone wanting to become vegan: Do not do it if you think it will result in eating chips, pasta, rice and noodles with the occasional salads and fruits. It won’t work.

If you feel you have to force yourself to the point where it makes you unhappy. STOP! Yes it is good to be aware of what you eat but being happy is so much more important. This is coming from an animal lover so believe me.

Any way long story cut short (or was this not short at all? I don’t know) becoming vegan was the best thing I’ve ever chosen to do. It’s not just morally satisfying, it’s also SO HEALTHY! I feel a lot better within myself. No matter how many people tell me otherwise. I have blood tests to prove it.

P.s I don’t know how this even makes sense but it seems not even blood tests are enough to prove to people that there is nothing wrong with me.

Keep an open mind xxx