Tag: awareness

6/1/2018

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Tonight, I came home from being out the entire day, went straight to my mum, and asked her, “why is it that I can be so close to doing something, I get so excited that I’m about to do it, but it never ends up happening?” I was so down. So disappointed with so many things at the time. So I went to my room, picked up a book and started reading, in hope that it would make me feel a little better.

10 minutes later, my mum rushed into my room, as if she had just remembered something and HAD to tell me before she forgot it, and said…”maybe it’s not happening just yet, and with the people who you want it to be happening with, because there is better waiting for you.”

We both looked at each other for a few seconds just smiling.

Maybe that’s true?

True or not, I needed that. My mums not one to give all that spiritual, out of the box advice, she’s normally a ‘get on with it and do what you gotta do’ kind of person, so this was quite powerful. Like a slap in the face, wake the flip up moment.

I have been wanting to do certain things for so long now, and have had multiple opportunities to do them, but something always gets in the way. Either my intuition tells me it’s not right, or someone let’s me down. But, like everyone in this world, my life lessons are always learnt through the most uncomfortable moments of my life. The moments when I am the most lost and confused.

The universe is forever teaching me patience and how to trust that when things are right for me, when the timing is also right, those things will become easier to reach. Easier to understand. Easier to accomplish. I lost sight of that. My mum, through those few words, opened my eyes again.

Things happen when they are supposed to happen. It might even take YEARS for what you want, to become available to you. Sometimes things might not happen the way that you thought it would, because you are supposed to be doing something other than what you expected. Sometimes you don’t end up being with the people you imagined, because you deserve better. Sometimes, you don’t get that job you wanted because, again, you deserve better. Whatever it is, what ever the obstacles are that may be blocking you from reaching your dreams and plans, let them be there. They are there for a purpose that you will only understand once they are no longer there.

It’s so important that we stay positive and never doubt ourselves in these moments of confusion. You can listen to all the advice that you are given, but only you, your higher self and your inner wisdom, knows the true answer. Even if the answer is simply, to wait.

Quiet your mind

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When I feel that my mind is too full, too noisy, when my thoughts are all over the place. The one thing that brings me back down to Earth is to be around nature. I’m not sure what happens that allows me to become grounded again, but it feels amazing. Sometimes I feel numb. Numb in the sense that I don’t remember all those horrible feelings that I had before. I hardly remember what made me feel the way I did in the first place.

So I sit, and I don’t think of anything but the trees and the sky and the entire universe. And how I am just one tiny person, with tiny problems, living in a HUGE world full of millions of people and animals, who also need all the help and love they can get.

I realise that we are all just trying to survive in the best and easiest way possible. I feel my soul talking. It tells me that nothing really matters as much as our minds trick us into believing it does. Nothing is as important or as scary as we make out it is. My soul tells me that time does not matter, that patience is EVERYTHING. That things can’t always come to us when we want it to and that things don’t always happen the way we planned it to.

And that’s it, that’s all it is. Acceptance. Living without expectation. Trust.

x

Love only

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You may think you know what it is that you want in life. But when it’s all said and done and you’re about to take your last breath, the only thing that will truly matter is love. And always will be love ❤️

Yet ego and pride are here to try and test you, to try and break you from your connection to love. They somehow convince you that it’s not important, that cars, money, looks, everything else matters more. It doesn’t. Those things don’t stay with you when you leave this earth. But your soul will always remember love. The love that you gave and the love that you received.

Never give up on it. Fight for it. Find love in everything that you do, everyone that you meet and everywhere that you go. Find love by seeing that we are all one. By opening your heart.

It can be so tiring when you put love into the wrong things and try to find it with the wrong people, but keep going because there are lessons that need to be learnt. And when you do finally learn…love will find YOU! You won’t have to search anymore.

Goodnight everyone x

Is it over thinking OR is it your intuition?

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Do you know how many times I have had people mistake my gut feelings for negativity? TOO MANY TIMES, to the point where I actually begin to feel that I really am just being negative. I question where those stupid thoughts came from in the first place. Is it my past? Is it my fears? Am I just over-thinking? And yes. Some times it is just negativity. But this isn’t about those times. This is about the other times, the times where you are absolutely right to feel the way you do and to think the thoughts you try your hardest not to.

I have had people argue with me and question me for ‘expecting’ that they would do something wrong, because in that moment they had no idea they would do something like that. But they do end up doing it and then blame me for putting ‘negative energy’ out there… apparently I made that happen? Yh right. Don’t get me wrong I believe in energy and that sometimes thinking negatively can actually jeopardize a certain situation. However I also strongly believe that if something is supposed to happen, thinking negatively and letting out that dark energy would make no difference what so ever. Oh, and most importantly, having a negative outlook on a certain person will not MAKE them do something hurtful. They will do it because they have it in them to do it. That is not on you. If it is in your path, you will experience it. The same way that thinking positively about a situation doesn’t necessarily mean that it will happen. Our minds are strong but mother nature has her ways of working…there are parts of our lives that we have no control over.

This is the one thing I know nearly all of us have experienced, so I suppose you will connect with it and start to understand intuition even more…

Have you ever had a strong feeling that your partner was cheating on you? The sudden thought hits you so forcefully that you feel sick to your stomach, you can’t shake off the feeling. It feels so real! So you confront them and ask them if they have been. They then get so defensive and start making you feel stupid, blaming it on your trust issues and calling you insecure. Have you then felt bad for ‘assuming‘ that they could do such a thing and you tell yourself that they would never do that to you? The same feelings pop up a few months after, you go through the cycle again, but this time, you find that THEY HAVE BEEN!! the entire time. BUT YOU DID NOT LISTEN TO YOURSELF. You ignored yourself and you allowed yourself to be manipulated. You confused your intuition with your insecurities and fears. Most importantly, you allowed someone other than yourself to do that to you.

I say this to EVERYONE, including myself, that when you get a feeling that something is wrong, that someone is being unfaithful. They most probably are. You can tell your intuition apart from your fear by the way it feels, it will feel real. It will make you feel uneasy or the complete opposite – fill you with happiness. Just a few seconds pure happiness, or pure hurt and sadness. It will hit you suddenly, out of absolute nowhere. It is like knowledge that you’ve gained and can never forget no matter how hard you try to. It will linger with you for days, weeks, monthhsss…however long it takes until you acknowledge that it is the truth.

Apply this to EVERYTHING in life. To finding a job, to finding a holiday destination, to a decision that you need to make.

I test my intuition all the time when I am driving. I take two routes to go to work, most of the time I will take only one. So I ask myself, ‘Shall I take this route, or the other one? Will I find traffic this way?’ and I go with my initial thought. Sometimes I ignore my initial thought because at the time I think I am over thinking, only to find that I was right to want to originally take the first route, because I end up being stuck in bloody traffic… FOR AGES! Other times, taking an alternative route doesn’t even cross my mind, that is my confirmation that I am fine with the route I am on. It seems quite weird, but I’ve gotten to really understand how intuition works just a little more by doing this. Try it 🙂

If you have an immediate thought that something will not turn out as you expect it to, or you think you should or shouldn’t do something for whatever reason. Or you feel deep in your gut that someone is not who they portray they are. Or even if someone is worth it!! BELIEVE YOURSELF. You are not being negative, you are not over thinking. Don’t listen to the shit people tell you. It is your intuition, your higher self, your psychic self, that is giving you this information. NOT your fear and not your hopes. You have to learn the difference. Most of time, you will push your thoughts to the back of your mind because you want to give someone a chance, or because you think you are just reflecting your past hurt on your current situation, or you are just being fussy or hopeful, or scared that the time might not be right. Ignore all of it. Go with your initial thought and do not let anyone persuade you otherwise.

xxx

My dreams never fail to amaze me…

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Around a week ago me and my dad were having a conversation about him moving to cyprus and starting up his own business there. I was so happy when he mentioned that he wanted to do this as I have always known he would be happier over there. I want the best for him…But it was just a thought, nothing more.

Last night, I dreamt that I was in cyprus with my dad, we were walking around somewhere that looked unusually new and lively, the vibes were amazing. I couldn’t recognize the place but I do remember thinking that the area would be the perfect area to open up a business in. We walked around for ages, I had only positive thoughts come through, whilst my dad was quite uncertain and skeptical, as you would be. He questioned me, he questioned his idea to move. In that moment, my granddad appeared. My granddad passed away years ago and the only time he visits me in my dreams is when he needs to let me know he is here for us. In this dream he was young, younger than I have ever seen him, he was full of life and very healthy. He didn’t say a word but my soul knew that he was telling me he was there for my dad. He was supportive of my dad’s idea to go to cyprus. He would be right beside him.

I woke up and I felt the sudden urge to write it down as I normally do because I hate the idea of forgetting such a powerful dream like this. But I also normally never end up doing so as I get carried away with my actual life and forget. I knew it meant something though, I knew that I would remember it if I was supposed to. Throughout the entire day today I kept visualising my granddad and the message he left in that dream. It was so intense that I felt as if it had been real. That’s how I knew. So I told myself I would call my dad later on and tell him, once I did, he was so relieved to hear it. It gave him that extra bit of confidence and support that he needed.

I just thought this was amazing. My granddad heard of his sons plans and had come through to tell me that he approved. How beautiful.

Not a lot of people really believe that this kind of stuff is real, that someone can come through to them in their dreams… So pleassssseeee, if you do experience dreaming of a loved one who has passed away, it is real! They are really there. Don’t brush it off the moment you wake up. It is very rare to dream of someone who has passed and if you do, it is because there is something they would like you to know, most of the time it is that they are there for you. Or that they want you to know they are happy and safe and that there is nothing to worry about. Don’t ignore them, listen to them. Also, if you have noticed that they always look healthy and happy in your dreams, nothing like what they did the moment they passed…it is because they are! Pain does not stay with you when you pass, only love and forgiveness.

Don’t look for it though, they will only come when they need to…

x

Patience

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Do you ever get those days where you feel like you cannot get anything done? Things are moving so fast and you can’t keep up? You set unrealistic goals for yourself, then stress trying to make them happen. I am in this position right now, have been for ages. This year has honestly been on the go, nonstop, which is very unusual for me because I do everything in my power to make sure my life is calm and sloooow. Only because I’m the type of person that gets really overwhelmed when I don’t have enough down time, time to myself. And by time, I don’t just mean one or two days…I’m talking at least 2 weeks every now and then, to recharge my batteries and focus on me. I seriously have found myself saying “I just want to be alone” way too many times recently. But no, this year, especially the past month, has been very challenging. I’m trying to fit so much into my days and my head is literally going to explode.

Anyone else feeling like this? Because I’m feeling like most of us are going through this exact same thing.

This year is a year where we are focusing on ourselves, much more than we expected. We have visions and goals that we are trying to pursue. Last year we were quite stuck and unsure of what it was that we really wanted in life…we always knew deep down but it’s all coming out now. It’s happening. It’s a year of self growth, love and awareness and I see us really connecting with our own souls as well as understanding others.

But (and I’m saying this to myself too) we need to relaaaaxxxxx!! Yes we know what we want, yes we are trying to make it happen, yes we probably know that it will happen but only when the time is right! Things will happen when they are supposed to and only the universe knows when that is. We just have to remain PATIENT and trust that although it may seem that our efforts and hard work are being ignored, they are not. They are being heard, appreciated and slowly becoming real.

Sometimes the best thing to do when your mind is busy and all you’ve been doing is rushing around trying to keep to your ‘plan’, is to stop. It is more than okay to push your dreams to the side for a few days, weeks, even months! Don’t feel bad, don’t feel that because you haven’t been giving it your all, that you do not deserve it. Don’t feel that if you stop pursuing for a while, that it will all end. It won’t, if anything you will start again and you will be better, more confident and knowledgable than what you were before. I find myself saying things like “Why am I not doing this? I should be doing this” truth is I shouldn’t be. What I should be doing is listening to my intuition and doing what feels natural. So don’t force yourself to do something because you feel you have to, that’s how passion dies. Rest your mind and take a moment to tell yourself that not everything has to happen when you want it to. Life (unfortunately) does not work that way. Remember that good things are worth waiting for. But as long as you give it those positive, nurturing thoughts, believe, it will happen.

My patience is being tested this year I tell you that.

X