Your light is what makes you, YOU. Whether it’s your laugh, your kindness, YOUR WEAKNESS (emphasis on weakness because your weakness is beautiful and only people who love you for you, will never use it against you), your spontaneity, your passion, your drive, and your presence as a whole. Don’t be ashamed of it. Does it get you into dumb situations? Yep, probably. Do you wish that you had said no? Hell yeah. Do you regret some things or would you do them differently, even though it would go against who you are as a person? No, you shouldn’t, ever. My kindness and my impulsiveness especially, got me into many stupid, sticky situations.

I am such an impulsive person, not like drinking and smoking and stuff. It’s more of a ‘don’t really think about what you do no matter how much shit it can get you in, live in the moment’ type of impulsiveness. It’s fun (and dangerous, sometimes). I admire it whenever I see someone with the same trait. BUT, this trait honestly did get me into so many stupid situations that often messed me up emotionally afterwards, as I never took the time to consider my feelings and my saftey. I hated it for a while, I blamed myself for being this way because of how much I put MYSELF through. So in a way, I tortured myself, by not acting on ANY decision impulisvely, even if it would do me good. I completely shut that side off and went for ‘safer’ version of myself, which funnily enough, blocked my creativity and completely clouded my vision of how I saw the world, my world, my dreams and my goals. In the end, I found the balance. I realised I actually liked that part of me.

I suppose what I’m trying to say is that there might be parts of you that you aren’t 100% sure about. You might think back and realise how bad they were, or how they caused you and others around you so much pain. You might not want anything to do with that side of you. You might hate how kind you are, how giving you are, because you’ve always had it thrown in your face by the ones who you loved most. You might love doing something, singing, drawing, dancing etc but always had someone put you down to the point where you genuinely don’t want to do it anymore. But, my advice is, find the balance. That thing you don’t like about yourself anymore, well, it’s a part of you and always will be no matter how much you think otherwise, so accept it.

Also, NEVER stop yourself from doing what your heart tells you to do, especially if you want to do it.

When you stop your soul from doing something that it wants to do, you are ignoring it. When you ignore it over and over again, it becomes quiet. When it becomes quiet, you may not hear it anymore. When you cannot hear the voice within you, you begin to lose yourself. Your light dims because you’ve put it out so many times by telling it it’s not worthy enough to be listened to.

Look at it like this…

Imagine constantly telling a child to stop doing something that they love, or to stop acting a certain way. Eventually, they won’t want to do it anymore because they’ve been taught not to. They’ve been taught that’s it’s wrong, that it’s annoying, or that no one likes it. They might even grow up feeling lost and not knowing what they want to do because no one ever acknowledged their true interest and passion from the start, which they end up forgetting about and may never remember again. When you tell a child to stop crying, crying is for babies, strong children don’t cry. That child will grow up thinking that crying is wrong. It will shut off its caring and emotional side (that was beautiful to begin with), it becomes this heartless, egotistic person that will look down on any real emotion because, to them, it is seen as weak.

Imagine yourself as a child; let yourself do anything it wants to do. Don’t let that child be you. Don’t tell yourself it’s wrong to act a certain way; don’t tell yourself it’s wrong for being who you are! Look back on a time where you were your happiest, and discover why. Become that happy person again, who never used to care about anything as much. Ask people around you what they love about you and what they see when they look at you. Whatever that is, that is your light. That is your vibe. BE THAT PERSON. Honor that person. Love the child within you.

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