I know I haven’t been posting a lot recently, I want to, but as bad as this might sound, I have not had the slightest bit of energy to do so. Everyday life is draining me to the max and I’m trying to deal with it in the best way I can. Not sure if I’m doing a good job but hey, at least I’m trying right?
You know those pressures you feel when you start something new, a hobby, blogging, poetry, workouts etc, but you also know you aren’t doing it as much as you should be. It pisses you off even more knowing that you want to, but can’t mentally do it. Or you can do it, but know you wont be giving it your all. That is me right now.
My minds been a blur, there’s so many things I’d like to write about, but it’s a mess up there. It’s all jumbled and I can’t seem to find the right way of writing things. I can’t express my words the way that I expect to when I begin writing. Is that normal? I don’t know. But its winding me up. It’s most probably the over thinking that builds this block in my mind, in my writing, so I suppose once I stop thinking about it, it will come naturally. That’s just the way this works though isn’t it? It’s the way the universe has always worked.
Once you put so much thought into something, it’s as if the thought no longer exists and it becomes nothing. You lose sight of the bigger picture, you lose sight of what you wanted in the first place. That pure original thought ends up being replaced with worry, doubt and ego.
So long story short. I’m working on it.
We all gotta work on what ever is dragging us down emotionally, spiritually and mentally. But at the same time, making sure to remember that it is okay to take a little break from things. No matter how much you love doing them. No matter how much you know you want to do them things. It may be, that all we need, is a little time to rediscover our pure intentions again.